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ME: Dedicated & determined Jesus-follower, crazy-in-love with my husband, devoted to my kids, Nammy to Kate, Ludovic & Eloise, idea person, eternity thinker, passionate about missions, hot curry maniac, fanatical about all things "pioneer", daisy-crazy, trusting God for constant growth and grace in my life.

4/07/2009

saying goodbye to the meaningless

"yet when I surveyed all that my hands had done
and what I had toiled to achieve,
everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind;
nothing was gained under the sun"
Ecclesiastes 2:11
i was thinking today
about how much of our lives and time is taken up with what i call maintenance
maintenance . . . meaningless stuff that takes up time
lots of time . . .
buying stuff
food
clothes
houses
and stuff to fill them up
more stuff than we need
then, more maintenance
pay for it all
work
make money
drive here and there
manage finances
manage the house
manage the dog
manage the kids
whew . . .
i've seen and experienced something different
and i often long for that simplicity
it's purpose
it's focus
i'm thinking change has to be on the horizon . . .

4/06/2009

so . . . it turns out i'm not the only one . . .

one of the men of God that i most trust to bring a true word said this in his march 27th devotional . . .

"Any message about death bothers us. We try to ignore even thinking about it. We suspect those who talk about it of being morbid. Occasionally we will talk about what heaven must be like, but most of the time the subject of death is taboo.

How different the first Christians were! Paul spoke much about death. In fact, our resurrection from the dead is referred to in the New Testament as our “blessed hope.” But nowadays, death is considered an intruder that cuts us off from the good life we have been accustomed to. We have so cluttered our lives with material things that we are bogged down with life. The world has trapped us with materialism. We can no longer bear the thought of leaving our beautiful homes, our lovely things, our charming sweethearts. We seem to be thinking, “To die now would be too great a loss. I love the Lord, but I need time to enjoy my real estate. I’m married. I’ve yet to prove my oxen. I need more time.”

Have you noticed there is very little talk, nowadays, about heaven or about leaving this old world behind? Instead, we are bombarded with messages on how to use our faith to acquire more things. What a stunted concept of God’s eternal purposes! No wonder so many Christians are frightened by the thought of death. The truth is, we are far from understanding Christ’s call to forsake the world and all its entanglements. He calls us to come and die, to die without building memorials to ourselves, to die without worrying how we should be remembered. Jesus left no autobiography, no headquarters complex, no university or Bible college. He left nothing to perpetuate his memory, but the bread and the wine."


thank God for His message spoken forthrightly in truth!

thank God for messengers who never white-wash the truth

who preach the whole truth - and nothing but the truth

servants who are unafraid to speak out those "unpopular" truths.

you know, the ones that might "rock the spiritual boat"

the ones that might make people "uncomfortable."

i mean, how many messages have you heard that mention the actual words

sin

hell

death

not many!

those words are white-washed, and may be casually mentioned as

sin?

let's call it "our faults" ... "our failures" ... or "our mistakes"

hell?

don't even go there!

death?

hey, keep focused on the positive

tell people about the "benefits they will gain" if they "choose God"

no need to warn them (as Jesus blatantly did by the way) of an impending eternity in hell, if they don't "repent"

our politically correct society has made the gospel message palatable for our generation

i don't want a palatable, watered-down version . . .

"Lord, thank You for truth!

may i always want the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth!"

3/29/2009

change . . .

i'm a hopeless planner, a dedicated scheduler, a date-book lover. if plan a doesn't gel, i leave it behind and move on to plans b, c, d, e . . . on and on it goes.
but i'm learning that the closer i walk with God, the less my life can be planned out. nothing is sure on my agenda.
the Lord is weaving a tapestry of days for me.
days to make a difference.
days to praise Him.
days to seek and know Him.
days for others.
days to be alone.
days to grow.
days to change.
i want to please God in what i do and in choices i make.
i want to trust in him alone.
i want to live as a pilgrim here.
i want to be a good and faithful servant.
and so, when things change . . . again . . . i plant my feet firmly on my solid rock -
Jesus - and stand firm knowing that
he never changes.
he never fails.
he never leaves me.
he never stops loving.
i will fix my eyes on
Jesus. he is the author and the finisher of my faith.

today i found out that my pastor is leaving. his messages have watered my thirst. the word has rescued me from mediocrity. he speaks sincerely. he preaches the whole truth and nothing but the truth. i sense the Lord's deep love for him. i will miss him.

in times of change ...

"let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith ..."
Hebrews 12:2

i wrote these lyrics for a song waiting for music . . .
a song about things that are certain and things that are not . . .


nothing in life is sure
even my next breath not a guarantee
only one thing will endure
the Lord, my God will always be
the great I AM, my solid rock
the beginning and the end
there for me as I seek and knock
the great I AM, my faithful friend
riches come
riches go
cheer one day
next day woe
now a friend
now a foe
people come
people go
i am a pilgrim stamped in dust
with numbered days to live and love
my light, the word i read and trust
my home, with God in heaven above

3/28/2009

death

death
it has saturated my life
it has made me who i am
it is something i think about almost every day
ecclesiastes 7:2
"it is better to go to a house of mourning than a house of feasting, for death is the destiny of every man; the living should take this to heart"
thinking about death doesn't make you gloomy, or morbid, or melancholy
it makes you wise
it makes you a thinker
it makes you a visionary
it makes you full of thought
it makes you eternity-conscious
death doesn't have to be fearful
death doesn't have to be the unknown
death is a door
a door to eternity
eternity in heaven . . . with God
or
eternity in hell . . . separated from Him
think about death
think about your choice